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02 April 2015 @ 12:07 pm
So, I haven't given up my journal. Instead have the "If you don't have something nice to type...." thought process as of late.

I am just confused and lost.
Job satisfaction is on the severe decline as our bosses 's have started to mess about in the name of progress. Instead of providing me with further vet back up for busy consulting blocks, I have the lazy boss sitting upstairs doing f£^%& all. So, instead of help (which doing one booster a night isn't helpful), we just get the added stress of him hanging about, messing things up, being very dodgy with cases, and just generally destroying team morale. Its tragic. After a 2.5yr good run of building up their branch without any supervision/support (they are lucky we are damn good eggs), they have really started taking that all apart for who knows what.

Of course, change would rub anyone the wrong way. At first, I thought maybe I wasn't being fair or that I was overreacting. Still, it cannot just be me since all the rest of the staff are upset. As well, one has to ask what good they are when in the past few months they have been "helping", we have had a plethora of post operative complications, back tracking on estimates (leading to pissed owners), an overdose of medication (b/c the boss knocked 3 cats out at once for his convienience and didn't bother to tell his nuse), and a dog that had a seizure post operatively  (that he denied happened, refused to put in the dog's history, and didn't make the owner aware) that then died a few days later.  In ALL our time since being open we NEVER had anything like this happen....only once the boss came over and started messing about.  Its appalling and I have no words for how disgusted I am with him.

So, here I am teetering back and forth on what to do.
Then comes the meeting with the head of the charity we do work for. I am their vet one day a week, my partner is for 2 days of the week. We are a good team and we provide best care for the dogs. Our boss has very little to do with them and is only in when we are on holiday. (Which is exactly when stitches end up too tight and there are problems).  Still from his speech in the meeting, its all him and my partner. I didn't even get mentioned (it was as if I snuck into a meeting for somewhere I never worked). Needless to say, it was embarrassing and makes me feel that perhaps they are as keen for me to go as I am increasingly feeling.
16 November 2012 @ 06:11 pm
We cry tears of sadness because you have gone away.
We cry tears of joy because you have gone away on amazing adventures among the twinkling stars.
24 September 2012 @ 03:19 pm
when did we get too old for wishes?
18 September 2012 @ 06:06 pm
If truth be told, she sometimes argues with fortune cookies.
15 February 2012 @ 01:06 am
If cats respond to being down by snuggling, then I am fucked.
I have literally cat tumors these days.
I swear I was a happier person once.
18 December 2011 @ 08:22 pm
EDIT: I did this weeks ago, then it wouldn't post and I got annoyed with LJ.
Here I was going to post again and look what was sitting here?

Sophiawestern did it, and I said I would.
There has been a lot of darkness and doubt about directions this life is taking.
So, this might take time.

1. Purchase : I have put myself on a strict purchasing restriction since the whole no job/waiting for a locum post to come up.I only allow myself to spend what little money I get for writing online articles. So, its a very motivating reason to write (though they are rubbish reviews and like $3/pop). That said, I did splurge with what I had and bought a wee bit of happiness. It hasn't arrived yet, but I am counting the days.

2. Friends : After years of studying for my vet degree, I got to know some of my professors. When I became a locum virologist at the vet school, a number of them considered me colleagues (some still treated me like a student and bossed me around). One of the is a specialist in the field I am trying to get into. He is often my reference and is a friend on FB. I had sent a message about not getting the recent post despite being the most qualified. His response was kind and supportive and really did make me feel like I do have a chance and shouldn't give up.

3. Apprentice : One of THE researchers of feline viruses (who is actually retired) is doing some work in the lab next week. I asked if I could come and learn how to do the new assays, since its a technique I have no experience with. He said, of course. :) Sure its unpaid volunteerism, but its an opportunity to work with one of the legends in the field. Its silly but I am very excited. If my mentors happen to be my parents of virus research, then this researcher is the granddad. :)

4. Christmas : R. and I were quite sad that he doesn't have enough time off this year to go home at Christmas (which I have been going along with for 6 yrs now). But we've managed to get him time at NY's + for our Christmas I am taking him to his fav Chinese place (which actually has a Christmas dinner menu) for a different kind of Christmas.

5. ....spooky...my post didn't stick. The restore lost my last addition. Worrying.
Especially because I put Life: I mentioned that this year has been full of hard knocks and how I had been low a lot. That despite this the recent turn of events have helped me find my hope and fight again....when I had thought them lost.

Pretty positive? Dont you think?
05 September 2011 @ 10:51 am
08 July 2011 @ 12:22 pm
Gutted. Like a Fish. In a Swimming Pool. Full of Mud.